Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.’
I was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes just as I was beginning my adult life. I’m so accustomed to it now that it’s a part of who I am. It has been a roller coaster of a ride, just like life. I’ve had my ups and downs as well as challenges. Through it all I have learned a great deal. Recently I had a friend who also has diabetes and is on an insulin pump like I am question me for how I was handling a bolus (that’s a large dose at once when you eat). It threw me a little bit that she reacted the way she did, but it also got me thinking.
I have changed how I do things with my pump with each one I have had. I have learned what works for me and my body. If I am low, say around 75, and eating out, I will bolus as soon as I order my food even though it hasn’t come out yet. I do this and I don’t worry. I know I will not stay low or have an issue. I trust that my pump, along with the CGM (continuous glucose monitor) will keep me from going too low.
I realized that I have a trust in my pump based on how I have seen it work for me and what I have figured out works for my body. Diabetes is very personal and different for everyone. My pump is also always with me, always working to keep me in a good range. My friend was sure I would pass out and have issues, but I trusted that I would be fine. You might ask why I had such trust.
I had trust because I trust and have faith in God. I know that God has gifted those who make my pump with knowledge they use to design this device to keep me alive. It has been a long road getting as far as they have but I know the One who was behind it all. It also reminds me that while I trust in this pump to keep me alive, I trust more in Him. I trust that He will guide me through all the ups and downs of life with diabetes. Like my pump, God is always with me, always. I know He could take it away from me at any moment, but I also believe I have it for a reason. I see benefits to it more than I see the negatives. I trust that He knows what is best for me.
Put your trust in God, He will then give you the things you need to take care everything that comes along on this roller coaster ride we call life.