Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence?
I have spent a lot of time recently thinking back, going over memories of days gone by. From my earliest memories, as a child, as a youth, as a young adult, to today. I especially notice the long-ago memories. I never realized until recently that all those moments, God was there. I didn’t know anything about God when I was young. Rarely went to church or “Sunday” school. There were no discussions about God, who He was or His promises. There was the song “Jesus loves me” but I really didn’t know Him or think about Him. But He was there.
I go back to moments when I was very young, hurting, crying, scared, any of those emotions that are significant for a young child. When I replay those moments I remember, I now see He was there. He was the voice telling me to go hide. He was the one looking down at me from a cloud while I sat crying my heart out about the things little children cry about. He was there.
He was there the day I sank to the floor crying because I didn’t know how I was going to raise my two children on my own with no support from my ex-husband. He was there when I lost my mother, then my sister, and all the other family members I have lost. He was there when I reconnected with my father after finding forgiveness in my heart and asking for forgiveness from him. He has been there through all the little moments and the big ones, like when I married my best friend.
The more I go over all the moments in my life I see He has always been there. He was reaching out to me, calling me. He was pulling at my heart, consoling me during the low times. He was trying to get my attention. He wanted a relationship with me. A better relationship than I have with anyone here in this world. He wanted me.
Hear Him in the moments. Feel His presence. Know He just wants a relationship with you like no other. Accept His love. He is always there!